my feet are really dirty

so went to the bar last night for the ex's bday and was the first one there. which means my first drink was free. and then a shot. and then followed by more drinks, some which i paid for, some i scammed people into buying me with my smashing personality and just plain irresistableness. (whatever, its a word and thats how you spell it) apparently i do need alchohol to have a good time. which i did... was a great time. then at the end of the night when i was too drunk to drive home and had to wait it out with some people i learned that everybody knows everything about my personal life-like stuff i didnt even remember and was like holy shit how do you know that kind of stuff. so here it is i wish you could see the look on my face right now because its one of bewilderment. (whatever, its a word and thats how you spell it) my heart is beating really fast, but that could be a side effect of the 6 double vodka redbulls that i had not 9 hours ago and if i'm rambling at all its because i am completely confused and i think it was less confusing when i didnt talk to the ex because the look on my face is still there and jen i know what you are thinking and thats not it but i am bothered and could really go for some turkey bacon right now....