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if you really miss me it seems i have a new addiction. myspace.com/tarablonde
i am pretty sure i am the laziest blogger on the planet. well, second laziest, after hootie pootie. i had resignated myself to never blog again, but here i sit, rambling on about nothing as usual. its like a first love, that i will always have a special place in my heart for, but everytime i see it things get awkward and i never have anything to say. fuck that was a good analogy and i just made it up on the spot. i am fully aware that none of the words i am using fit the sentences they're in and are all spelled wrong, but as i am not notjoecheese with a dictionary and/or thesaurus sitting beside me (sorry buddy i gave you up. full of scandal) . there is no ending to that sentence either. just drops off. into nothing.
so my friend, we'll call him 'joe', has decided to accompany me on a little excursion accross the pond next summer. so i'm over at his house tonight, doing a little research about eurorail and busabout, you know, costs and such. as i am typing in busabout.com i accidently type but and what comes up automatically in the little address bar? none other than buttspliters.com. 'joe' blatently denies ever visiting this site, but fails to provide the name of anyone else who could have done it. not that there is anything wrong with looking up porn on the internet. if you are a lonely desparate pervert who likes watching max hardcore videos of girls vomiting on themselves. oh wait, that was 'joes' roomate.
alright alright. i know i suck. apparently i can only write posts for other people or if i am drunk. perhaps next time it will be both, so god help you if i ever figure out your password after a few vodka redbulls. so lets see. what is new.
ok. so i got up at 4:00 this morning to take my mom to the airport for the second time in two weeks. blah. good thing my new thing is to be an insomniac lately, so its not like i actually had to set the alarm. my great grandma died the other day, so my mom is going back for the funeral. but dont feel bad, she (my g grandma) was almost 102, and she kinda wanted to die. apparently there is not much quality of life for a almost 102 year old who still has her wits about her, but not much of the mobility. she was a cool lady, however, who outlived two husbands and two daughters, one of whom happened to be my grandmother. she will be missed.
has anyone seen lord of war and perhaps would like to explain it to me? nevermind. i dont really care. but jared leto 30 seconds to mars is looking mighty fine these days. so what if he's totally weird and was on my so called life.
i dont care what anyone says i'm sticking with the trebuchet. arial is so last season. ahh yes, another halloween, another weekend, another daylights savings time all gone by. maybe next year i will get it into my head that it isnt neccessary to be friends with all my old boyfriends. because lets face it, sometimes they just creep me out. but yet, i found myself at one of their houses saturday night after the bar. (hootie and i went as pirates for halloween. so awesome) ninety percent of the time when i hang out with this person, i wish i was somewhere else but yet i still find myself in the prediciment that i was in saturday night. the minute i got there i knew it was a bad idea. scratch that, i knew before that. needless to say it ended in me walking out shaking my head while getting yelled at with the door locked behind me. typical behavior but yet here i still am trying to make a friendship out of a bad relationship that never worked in the first place. bahhh. i have the hardest time letting go of guys in my life that i have dated, but no problem at all ending relationships with friends who i feel have done me wrong. which is funny, because the guys i've dated treat me far worse than anyone else, but i stick around for as long as it takes for them to break up with me. and then once i am just finally sane again i open that door and let them back in because for some reason i feel i have something to prove. dont know if its to them or to myself, but it usually ends up messy again with the lines all blurry and even though i know i dont want to date them i know i dont want to not talk to them and go to outrageous efforts to include them in my life when most of the time they couldnt care less. dont get me wrong, i dont really give it too much thought other than it pisses me off. while writing this post, i am also msn-ing one of them.